// Show Me The Shoes

August
I have waited and waited
For you to see me
For me to be anything
I might be something, now

Do you feel me there?
In the quiet night
Do you feel my voice
On the back of your neck?
Do you remember my dreams
That I spoke to you in secret?
Can you tell me a story?
Tonight, just to help me fall asleep
I just need to rest my eyes

A workshop in South Carolina
You tell me about your new friends
They sound wonderful
I take a few steps through the hydrofield
And I cry out to any warm body
A noise like that should echo and reverberate
But it didn't
All sound ceased
And years ago in the schoolyard
Children screaming "there's a condom in the grass"
We peered at a relic of another state of being
And laughed at the absurdity
Getting older seemed so impossible then
It still does

How do I do it
How do I do it
How do I make you see me
How do I make you see me
How do I make you see that I bleed
I'm a person and I bleed
I'm a real person and I bleed
And it's all for you
It's all for you
I bleed and it's all for you
It's all for you
I bleed and it's all for you

No matter what I win
No matter what I lose
I'm grateful for this
I'm grateful for you
But I bleed for you

I BLEED FOR YOU-

I worried
For so long
Oh I worried what you would think of me
My prized pig

And even after No Return
You came to my first show
And stayed the whole night
My friends and family
Me and Michael
What ever have I done
To deserve people like this

// In a Sea of Grifters

In a sea of grifters
I've gotta sell my way out
Oh, in a sea of grifters
I've gotta peddle my way out