1. |
Cult of Personality
05:45
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Let him die, that she may not stand naked before him
Young man, show me the depths of your pain
Like the rest
He speaks in a low voice and tells me
What about me?
Oh, this life is painful, it's irreverent, and it's ugly
My dear foam flower
Do you even know what I'm capable of?
My dear foam flower
Do you even know what I'm capable of?
My dear foam flower
Do you even know what I'm capable of?
I hurt myself
I hurt myself
I hurt myself
Where's my cult of personality?
The hands forget
But the neck remembers
The axe forgets
But the flesh remembers
I am a creature
A disgusting thing
And I hurt myself so bad
So bad
It's gone too far
Too far
The fantasy has gone too far
You didn't deserve this
The fantasy
You didn't deserve this
It's gone too far
Too far
You didn't deserve this
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2. |
The Year of Pornography
05:21
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(Ah, spring
When birds are on the wing
When flowers bloom
When a young man's fancy lightly turns to... thought
What's the matter?
What you need is to put down that notebook
and take in some of the beauties of nature
See what I mean? [Here she is, she is single, and fun-loving]
But what a minute young lady [She has no children]
How did you get in to this picture?
You see,
We're trying to prove a point about nature and beauty [She's athletic]
Look at your hair [...to a degree]
Look at that blouse [She travels]
And the way that skirt hangs
And those socks [And, she spends money]
Sorry, there must have been a mistake
You don't seem to be exactly the type to make this guy behave like a human being)
The intense cacophony of daily life
Consumed by an intrusive thought
Two or three breaths
Beware the year of pornography
Craving a feeling you didn't even know was there
Tasting forbidden flesh
It manifests with a physical ache
A fake orchid by the window
Plastic fangs that bite right through
"You stupid bitch"
Make it stop
Make it stop!
To practice what you preach
Might be the hardest lesson you ever learn
(I am so afraid of those who do not fear consequence
Or the fearful that indulge regardless)
He's everything you wanna be
Conquer something violently
If only she was real
It used to be fun
I feel so bad
I feel so bad for what I did to her
She didn't deserve it
But I did it anyway
Because I wanted to
God, if only I didn't want to
And through all the pain
She looks so beautiful
I don't want to look away
I am yours
I am always yours
Just take me
An intense pang of loneliness
Might just convince me to donate
Her body, what a wonderful cause
To engage in meaningless debauchery?
Oh, I just might revel in it
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3. |
One Lucky Girl
02:49
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Affection, neglect
I'll take what I can get
You tell me to swallow my spit
And I listen
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
You're safe with me
Do it for me baby
You're safe with me
Do it for me baby
You're safe with me
Do it for me baby
You're safe with me
Do it for me baby
You're safe with me
Do it for me baby
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
This dull ache
It never goes away
This worm
That sucks my throbbing veins
If I would do it for anyone
I would do it for you
Playful until forceful
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky girl
One lucky
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4. |
Heartsweet
03:21
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Oh, what I wouldn't do
To have a girl like you
Love me just the way I am
To love me just the way I am
Oh, what I wouldn't do
To take a girl like you
Any way I can
Any way I can
I think about her all the time
All the time
Insecurity
Enveloppes a heart so lonely
One bird, tight in the hand
No hope for a life in the bush
Like radium in the jaw
Goes down easy if you don't know what you're licking
Like rocks and sticks
A hammer for the brightest witch
Another Cut Piece
To destroy without consequence
For an eye to eat
To it's fullest pleasure
A total shock to the system
To feel even the slightest touch of love
Please allow me
To consume every piece of you
The fantasy has gone too far
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5. |
Erotica Fantastica
07:23
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She looks just like you
How I love to love you
She looks just like you
How I love to love you
Like the first to bleed
He tells me
No, I couldn't be
This world it rips my stomach open
And beautiful women pour out
Beautiful women pour out
Like the man on the screen
You said you'd be gentle
To me
You said you'd be gentle
To me
When I laugh off the joke
Of sobriety
How you sing to me
And blare my sirens
Into the night
Like a horrible orchestra
Like a beautiful sight
She looks just like you
She looks just like you
And I'm close
To the thought of you
To the thought of you
Erotica Fantastica
Like I'm wanted
Needed
Like I'm wanted
Needed
But I'm not
But I'm not
To eat and to be eaten
What a lovely kind of sick reprise
And if I'm nothing, then so be it
I can always stay inside
This kind of beauty
I didn't know what it would do to me
What--
What did you do to me?
Oh my god what did you do to me?
What did you do?
What did you--
Oh!
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6. |
Irrumatio
03:52
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Aha ha!
It is an irrational process
it's a very painful, but irrational process
And I've gotta still live with that
So what do you random unknowns think?
Am I beauitful?
Or Ugly?
Be honest as possible
You can't hurt my feelings.
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7. |
God of Ugly Things
04:57
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Like rocks and sticks
A hammer for the brightest witch
I wish I was stronger
That words made it stop
But god loves the capital
And god loves the cops
I've watched him for years now
Tying favors and knots
He likes all the young ones
He likes when they--
Piggy piggy, cut your stomach with a knife
A town of wolves came running
With babes in their jaw
I tried to remove all your teeth
But they took away my voice
A predator with no bite
I can only imagine
(In the alley, in the night)
I wanted to be pure
But you made me ugly
You made me hate
Piggy piggy with a knife
They didn't believe me
Piggy piggy in the night
I hate what you did to me
I hate how I fight
Get revenge
Cave some skulls
Maybe even make a difference
Keep your head down, boy
I know what you hide
I will drag you through the mud
Since that's where you love to lie
Love to lie
I wanted to be pure
But you made me ugly
You made me hate
Piggy piggy with a knife
They didn't believe me
Piggy piggy in the night
I hate what you did to me
I hate how I fight
Grocery store predator
Hand made by the god of ugly things
Draped with a delicate cloth
By the powers that be
Blood for the machine
Comfort for the people eaters
Pigs in a fucking blanket
I have an aching need
To understand you
And I can never
Understand you
And your mechanisms
I am not built to be sustained
And neither are you
Neither are you
Neither are you
Neither are you
Neither are--
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I have wandered
And one thing I've found
That hate doesn't heal me
Catching a falling knife
I will catch it if you want me to
I'll do anything you want me to
I will catch it if you want me to
I'll do anything you want
I'll do anything you want me to
I'll do anything you want
I have wandered
And one thing I've found
That hate doesn't heal me
It only resounds
I am your comfort
I am your rest
I am your pillow
I am your flesh
I will catch it if you want me to
I'll do anything you want me to
I will catch it if you want me to
I'll do anything you want
I'll do anything you want me to
(Somebody has to know
Somebody has to do something
You can't do this
You can't do that to someone)
Darkness complete
Lights no candles
Water from your eyes
Mishandled
It spills
From your breaks like water
And I grew gills
So I could understand
But I can never understand your pain
When I can't even understand my own
Too close to the effigy
Consumed by the flame
The haunting sound of an emasculated man
I fear no voice the same
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9. |
In Fear and Trembling
04:41
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I want to escape violence
I want to escape pain
It permeates my skin
And the air I breathe
It will not leave me alone
I know you told him to do this
I know you told him to be this
But please, send a ram
I want to escape violence
I want to escape pain
It permeates my skin
And the air I breathe
It will not leave me alone
Abraham's footing was sure
And his chest did ache
But what of young Isaac
Layed on the slab
By what ropes was he bound
And what did he think when he walked home
How did he sleep
How did he sleep
As a man, sold a fantasy
That my worth was who I could eat
And who wanted to be eaten
That the love of others defined my own
I felt small, I felt weak
Things you told me a man shouldn't be
So I ate their images
I swallowed them whole
Because they told me I was wanted
I put up a good fight
And as bad as it is
It happens on so large a scale
I can hardly breathe
Come, my brothers
Leave the fruits of depravity with me
And wander through the dilapidated barns of the countryside
There is only ruin here
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